its been a long time.

wee. great stuff has happened.
and not so great stuff has happened too.

hehe. boys are lovely.

So I am definitely sitting here looking at my glass of water and staring in awe because of how pretty it is....


So I am definitely getting new clothes tomorrow (got two pair of jeans today, w00t! really needed them, all others were quite holy and you know how I feel about religion). I think I am going to get some fishnet stockings and a mid calf skirt and heels. Seriously, who the fuck cares. I think I've gotten over that whole Oh no I can't wear a skirt I'm not skinny mini phase of mine. Seriously, a girl can still look good and not be skinny right? And hell yes, I can soo pull off fishnets (I want my hair red again damnit)

So I am definitely a loser. :-D But I am also a great party planner!!! and ...wedding planner??? hehe w00t for a friend!

I have a smile not so unkindly plastered (of Paris or of alcohol) on my face and it's been there for a while of my own accord.

Big news. I was nominated for NPAC!!! although not many of you will know what it is if I place well my poem gets published in the Reconnaître Magazine (supposed to be italicized i know) but gosh so happy. I've also come to a few very important realizations and have come to begin to be able to let go of some of my old destructive mental habits (especially ones dealing with relationships). Anyway, this proves so far to be a great turn for the better and I think fall is my new favorite season as of right now!!!!

I only wish my happiness was as catching as I'd like it to be.
Come on people! SMILE!!!

I WANT EVERYONE WHO READS THIS TO REPLY IN THE COMMENTS WITH THREE THINGS ABOUT THEMSELVES THAT MAKE THEM SMILE (ONLY GOOD THINGS ALLOWED, I WILL SPAM YOUR PAGE WITH SMILEYS IF YOU SAY NEGATIVE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF) :-D

The candle is soft, sweet, flexible.
The flame is hot, tempermental, undefined.
The candle and flame are interchangeable.

Theory A: The candle wants the flame. The flame wants the candle but the candle refused the flame.

Theory B: The candle wants the flame. The flame wants the candle but the flame refused the candle after the candle refused the flame.

Theory C: The candle doesn't want the flame but the flame wants the candle and the candle turns into the flame when the flame lights other candles.


Theoretical Solution: The candle and flame need each other to fulfill their purpose to one another.

Why isn't it that simple?

So. deviantart is still not letting me post anything or submit anything correctly, not even into the scraps section.

So. I was told I should submit stuff to this place called Erosha online lit mag. [link] (not for those who don't like the more erotic poets)

So. I was also told by an older UKian man that I put the fear of God in him through my words and he holds me in awe (I think I love him for saying that, or maybe it scares me a bit that he said that because I'm not quite sure what he means).

So. I also realized that guys being friendly towards me scares me too...I'm not used to all this touching and hugging and talking on the phone!!! :hides:

So. I love my friends and can't wait for the art opening!